Welcome To My Curse

I hate when this holiday starts to come around

I feel trapped and alone and stuck

I never do anything special and I guess that is because it’s the busiest day of the year

But why is it fair to watch families go out and have fun each year.?

Why is it fair to read about families having a blast and going out for dinner or doing something spectacular.?

Why am I cursed on this day to do nothing and watch others live a dream I wish to live on this one day.?

Why is it okay for me to feel left out on this day.?

Why am I cursed to watch people be happy when it’s my day too.?

When I should be feeling the happiest.

When I should be feeling blessed, Jubilant.

Honestly every time it comes around I just wish more than anything that this day will hurry up and go away succinctly.

This curse is insidious in my life because it’s such a poignant day in my life where I realize that this will always just be another day

That to others and now to me it’s nothing special it’s just another day ALOT of people celebrate

It’s just like any other day

I can’t go out or do anything spectacular, but even worse because this is supposed to be my day

My chance to have fun with my friends and family

The day I add a number to my life & the day that out of the entire year is supposed to be my day

But it’s not because everyone celebrates this day

Everyone visits family and do their own thing with their loved ones

So this curse what is it.?

Well it’s my birthday and it’s the WORSE day of the year………






Love On TV

Can you get married to a complete stranger in a week.? Or within 10 weeks.? What about the first time you ever meet your spouse is on your wedding day.? Can you go on a tv show and let “professional” match makers tell you which person is your perfect match.? Can you eliminate potential bachelors/bachelorettes until you get to your perfect one.? Well in these tv shows that is exactly what these complete strangers does. They drop everything at home and go on tv hoping to find love.

The Spouse House

This is a new TLC show that aired its 3rd episode this week. Now the Spouse House is about 14 singles moving into the house looking for love. The catch.? Well there HAS to be a proposal each week or people have to leave. The people the singles feel didn’t make a connection with anyone are the ones that are voted out. If there is a proposal then everyone stays in the house and we watch the engaged couple become married. Each season will be in a new city & the singles all have to be in that city so when the show is done there won’t be any problems with trying to move near each other because they all live in the same city.


Married At First Sight

Now I NEVER watched this even though I wanted to. I never got the chance I kept forgetting. Now based on what it says online this is what the show is about. . .  “The cart comes way before the horse in the reality series “Married at First Sight.” Based on a hit Danish format, “Married…” features six people who agree to participate in an extreme experiment: Each covenants legal marriage with a complete stranger. Specialists — including a spiritualist, a relationship coach and a sociologist — use scientific matchmaking methods to determine each couple, who will not have met or had contact with each other until the wedding day. The series then documents the relationships, including honeymoons and other relatable events of married life. After several weeks, each couple must decide whether to remain together or go their individual ways.” 

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Are You The One

I really love this show. 20 singles come into one of the houses they have. The singles house and must communicate with each person to figure out who their match is. Each week there is a new game they must play to score dates with certain people and if they win the producers set up a romantic date for the couples. At night when the couples are on their date the rest of the cast mates must choose which couple to send to the truth booth to see if they are a perfect match. Once the ceremony comes we find out if the couple who was sent to the truth booth was a match or not. If they weren’t they have to find their match with someone else. If they were they move into the honeymoon suite (2nd house). Then everyone guess who their perfect match is by who they like and put their hand print into this machine and then there are beams to let people know how much matches are correct or wrong. There are 10 beams so when all of them are lit that means they win $1 million to split among themselves. If there are no beams at the end of each ceremony then they lose money. I love this show because you always see people who are not a match still fight to be together. And honestly to this day there is only ONE perfect match who is married with a child the rest didn’t make it. Lets just say that there are more non perfect matches together than perfect. So maybe the match makers were wrong.?

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I don’t watch these shows but here is a description I found online. All of the rules are adopted from the rules of The Bachelor, its parent show. The series revolves around a single bachelorette (deemed eligible), who is usually a reject from the previous Bachelor season, and a pool of romantic interests (typically 25; 30 in season 5), which could include a potential husband for the bachelorette. For the final selection, one of two male suitors proposes to the bachelorette. All eleven seasons of The Bachelorette have ended with a proposal which the Bachelorette either accepted or declined. This differs from The Bachelor, who does not always propose at the end of the show. Season 13 is the first to have an African-American contestant as the bachelorette.


At the end of it all. All the craziness all these people have ONE thing in common. Finding love. Hopefully the ones that last outside the show last forever. I mean everyone deserves love even if it’s just for TV.

Bad Weather = Deal Breaker.?

Is bad weather a deal breaker.? Can you go out in rain, or when there is snow on the floor.? Or do you prefer to stay inside and forget the date all together.?

I know people who sees that it is going to rain and would text me saying oh it’s going to rain so I don’t want to go out anymore. And I would be confused wondering why…. I mean it is just rain and we are going to be inside.! What is it with people and it being sunny all the time for people to go outside and have fun. We don’t be “outside” really we go outside to get to where we got to go and then when we get there we are inside. I mean there are umbrellas for rain that is what they were made for. So why is bad weather a deal breaker.?

I don’t hang out with people like that because most likely when people say oh there is going to be bad weather when you ARE NOT going to be outside is just an excuse for not wanting to hang out with you. I mean who can’t go outside in bad weather when you aren’t staying outside but going inside. You are going outside to get into your car and then you are inside and then you are driving somewhere and when you arrive you are getting out to go inside and guess what both those outside times you can get an umbrella and it will be less than 1 minute to get inside.

So is bad weather a deal breaker when it is not storming outside.? No not for me, but others….. well they might give you a different answer.



Why is it when a model poses a certain way it is beautiful and perfect, but when a “regular” does it is offensive and demeaning.? Or how about when they post in something specific it’s amazing and gorgeous, but non models get called names for wearing the same thing on a daily basis or just for fun. Why does it matter.? What makes models different.? Because they are getting paid.? Because they are more popular.? What is it that makes them get more “respect” than others.? What makes them be more approachable and likeable than others.?
I believe we are all perfect and shouldn’t feel any less because we aren’t on the cover of magazines or in commercials. Perfect or perfection is a definition that defines everyone because it doesn’t fit just one description. Just like beautiful doesn’t just fit thin or thick people but EVERYONE.!
So PERFECT you can definitely run towards me and everyone else who sees themselves that way. But honestly who has time to even be perfect.? Who wants that pressure of being perfect.? Perfect isn’t for me and may not be for you so how about we throw out that word from our vocabulary and use SPECTACULAR instead.!

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Pinning My New Bedroom

I had Pinterest for a while now, but it was recently when I started using it more and more. I look at ideas for food, DIY, decor and I do find a lot of great things. I have been looking specifically into new bedroom decor for my new bedroom and I found some amazing things that I will be trying. I can’t wait to try all the ideas and to paint my room as well. I have an idea of a creme color for the walls so then I can have colorful bed sheets and items all around.

Here are some awesome and simple ideas I will be trying & comment below on what you look for to PIN.! 🙂


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You can check out more of my PINterest ideas by clicking on this link.


Can Happiness Be Real.?

Can it be true that happiness can be REAL.? Can everyone really be happy in their life.? I used to have so much dubious about happiness because I felt it was never a thing for me to truly have. I mean of course yes I get happy at times with certain things, BUT to be sincerely happy all the time or majority of the time.? Well that is something that was rare for me, but I think I broke the curse and I can actually be happy for real. I think happiness can be REAL.!

I am starting a new chapter in my life one where I have a say in my endeavours. I know I WILL succeed because this time I know what I want and what I don’t want or NEED. This time I am in control and I know what to do to just be happy. To keep the happiness at in all time HIGH.

And now here are some pictures of me enjoying my happiness and starting my new chapter. 🙂

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Fashion On The 4th

Hey everyone, I hope everyone had a safe, and fun day celebrating America’s Independence.! I know I had a lot of fun.! Celebrated with my family and friends. And had amazing food in the process, and of course dancing was involved because what kind of party is it without one.?

This post will be a quick one on the fashion I wore that day. I was into the RED, WHITE, AND BLUE theme. I think I was the only one into the theme lols. There probably were a few others, but after I told them to wear the colors. So what did I have on.? A white off the shoulders Forever 21 shirt with black Fashionnova pants, red nails, and blue earrings. I wanted to put the colors on different parts on me. So I went a bit festive and different, but who cares.! I am inimitable 🙂

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